This morning was the first time my baby ran to me and in tears said she had a dream about me! I asked her what the dream was about and she cried, ” Mommy your medicines were gone!” I said what happened and she sobbed, ” Your medicines were gone so you had to go, I couldn’t see you anymore!” I knew she was saddened because in her dream I’d died! I immediately reminded her that mommy doesn’t take any medicines anymore and that I just pray! I said,” baby before you came in here I was praying and Jesus loves me. He loves me so much and has healed me!” As I rubbed her back and held her close I prayed and openly gave thanks in front of for the healing I have received! She’s seen me sick and having to take medicine, but I NEVER told her I stopped and relied on Jesus. So in her head she thought those medicines were sustaining me and that couldn’t be so far from the truth! I quit the medicines because if the doctors had it their way I’d still be in the bed sleep never fulfilling purpose! Jesus is healer!
I told her that I will die and she squeezed me tighter!
I reminded her of what her teacher AT CHURCH whom I love dearly taught this week and the same lesson I’d taught to 35 2-5 year olds! The glorious place that has been prepared for us….HEAVEN! We talked about the majesty of the place, the fact that there’s no pain, no boo boos, no fear or bad dreams and the glorious lake and the trees with 12 different kinds of fruit (we love fruit) and the everlasting light that God will provide! I told her I will die but when I do she knows where I’ll be and I’ll be waiting for her and she gets to see me and our Father!
The old Sherrie would have openly feared and cried with her and instilled that fear of death in her child! I’m overjoyed because this morning I passed the TEST!
Thank you Lord for peace! Because I’m at peace she shall be too!
After having my WORSE nightmare I woke up this morning and fell to my knees and sobbed, “Lord please send your angels to protect my baby girl please help me tear down generational curses bestowed upon me be torn do so that she doesn’t have to go through what I went through!” Then I cried, “Lord I’d GIVE MY LIFE!” Then immediately a sense of peace came because I was reminded that I’d already given my life the moment I decided to live for Christ and the old Sherrie with the ways left and shall never return. The moment I was baptized I made that clear and my actions spoke!
I gave life for my baby girl!
With Christ old things are new! I am forever grateful that for our King’s Divine Best Plan! I’ll forever live my life according to His word! He has known us even in our mother’s womb and says He knows the plans for us, plans to prosper us! I hear people say they’d die for their children but refuse to dedicate life to Christ because they say they aren’t ready or it’s that one thing that they don’t want to give up and yet and still their children watch it and experience it even though they know its wrong.
DIE….I’d DIE AGAIN if I have to! OUR CHILDREN’S LIVES DEPEND ON OUR DEATH TO BECOME MORE LIKE CHRIST!
Thank you Lord for making generational curses clear to me and my heart speaks love now because I’ve been able to tear them down with your strength!
~ a poor sinner, just Sherrie
I’m committed! I’m committed to being committed to God’s design for marriage!
I will reverence my husband! Today I vow to show more honor towards my biological father by heeding his advice and stopping the thoughts that I know better than him, he is a wise man!
I vow in this day to stay clear of behavior, words, actions, looks that make my mother feel less than a mother. I will even cast down those thoughts that may lead to such! I will try to see her as Abba sees her.
I don’t want to take these dishonorable behaviors into marriage to only unknowingly transfer them to my husband.
I will honor him because Abba says so. I won’t do it begrudgingly, but joyfully knowing that I am being a “good girl”
Even when I think I’m right or have a better idea. I will respect his authority in my life.
I will be submissive just as he is submissive to Christ.
*After reading page 190 of the book “Preparing to be Helpmeet” by Debi Pearl I typed the following entry in my iPhone. Although I had a few hair raising experiences while reading the book, I do recommend one to read it because it surely gets you thinking about what it takes to be a Godly wife and will reveal areas to be strengthened if you are honest with yourself.
Selah with Me
I came home and kissed my “Pancake” and tucked her in and pulled from my drawer my Grandfather’s (one of the only ones I knew not to be biologically my relative by characteristically WAS my grandfather….DADDY we called him) worn thermal to have it adorn my frame and climbed in bed to find his navy blue Kangol tossed on my bed! I put these items on for comfort and really was reminded that we say goodbye when life in this Earth runs it’s course and it’ll be forever GOODBYE especially if when we meet our end we don’t do what we say we believe which for many of us is the word of God!
When I decided to live for Christ (like for real for real) I was pushed away something terribly by many! But this caused me to experience the unconditional love of not a natural man but my lover, Jesus! A love so pure and powerful that it caused all else to be erased! When I closed my eyes and thought, I saw Daddy’s lips go to the pout, lip poked out the way he’d look at us ladies right before he’d smile. The way he’d cut his eye at us and put his hands on his hips trying to decipher if what we were saying was true or while he’d say, “Aaaaaay Wee Wee what you mean you can’t cut no grass!” (Lol) For the millisecond my eyes closed I had those memories. Memories ETCHED forever that no one could tear away not even my worse enemy, SATAN! Because he, Satan is mad he can’t have me and that I’ve decided that I’d win the battle for my family in prayer!
I’ve decided to keep my mouth shut except for when the spirit within me tells me to speak! I never claim to be perfect, but what I can claim is that I conforming each day to an image that is perfect, that in which I, we, YOU were created, my, your OUR Father, God!
So when death becomes evident just dry your eyes, turn to Christ and give your heart to him. Minister salvation to those you love and care about so that your goodbye won’t be a forever goodbye. Be about your Father’s business in this Earth so when he sits on his thorn of judgement He won’t tell you, me, US “depart from me because on the Earth you acted liked you didn’t know me!” I know you want what I want; to be in the gates of Heaven posing for everlasting flicks! Despite Daddy’s past I know he’s in Heaven because I saw CHANGE FROM HIS PAST TO WHAT WAS HIS PRESENT at the time he went home to be with our Father. YES HOME, WE DONT BELONG HERE WE’RE ARE ON ASSIGNMENT! So STOP failing the TEST! You have the time now! You have the time NOW to have your loved ones be confident that when you die tomorrow, next month, this summer, or when have our first snow, maybe ten years from now WHENEVER (death is certain we don’t know when but we know its coming) that they will not be saying that FOREVER GOODBYE! Accept Jesus as your Lord and Savior! NOW…. LETS HAVE THAT REUNION IN HEAVAN when we leave this Earth!
With regards to this book, or maybe even my life, IF I WANT GOD’S RESULTS I CAN’T EXPECT THINGS IN MY TIMING! Thank you Holy Spirit!
I’ve been rushing my book, but maybe it’s just not time! I need the God-kind of resources to push this thing out and at the very moment I don’t! My deadline was May. I’ve got to get prepared for when those God-kind of resources arrive.
Just like in my marriage to my soon to be husband, I’ve got to get prepared for when that times comes. Learning him, finances need to be in order, and have an emotional handle on the baggage I may still be carrying. We must continue to build a strong foundation.
With this book I’ve got to *edit it thoroughly. Why should I be expecting anyone else to take care of “my baby” for me? I should really *pray, *expect to *receive as a result of asking according to God’s will. I know that this book and subsequent books are in His will. I also need to *explore the *online publishing platforms and *choose one. Upon *editing my book I should apply for that *copyright (it could take 3-5 months).
I really need that new computer!
How would I market or sale the book? So much to accomplish on top of everything else I have to do.
Lord I Pray:
- narrow my path, set me straight.
- show me the things I need, how to locate the resources that seem to be hidden.
- may your blessing be upon me and these books.
(As soon as I did what I planned to do. All of these prayers and much more were answered. 100 percent of the time God is waiting on us!)
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